One look, today when I almost gave in. But I didn't. Gave in to what? To your not affecting me. I'm trying to make myself believe that you aren't as great as I think you are, that you make me sadder than you do happier. That I can believe. I just feel lost without it all.

Maths was good, it was good to talk to everyone, good to feel included, just to feel wanted. That's probably what I want, because of my increasing selfishness, and need to feel wanted by people. I've got used to the fact that he doesn't. I just need something else to hold onto now, to stop me falling.

Feeling:
Listening to:
Pretending:

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