I'm safe, I have something there to protect me.
Everything is turning very strange - I've lost anything I ever had to do with inspiration or anything at all meaningful (which exams are not)
Spending your days in a cycle of sleeping and throwing up, finally falling asleep in the middle of Tech exam. I dreamt instead that I was in my science exam (again) and started writing bizarre things about carbon monoxide and reversible reactions or some such rubbish. This is rather insane.
I don't know how I'm supposed to tell those people that they mean so much to me.
Just in case they don't know. Which, however irrational, scares me a bit.
Things which are good(among others):
The smell of roses (the chocolate variety)
Gingerbread
(mainly because I have been fantasizing about things to eat)
blue & black scarves
Matrix coats & Matrix glasses on Matrix dudes
sleeping
really big pillows
(with flowers on)
(from Ikea)
(or Germany)
talking to friends
relief that you hate me now
Feeling:
Listening to:
Pretending: