I was making my way there, about to step out into the rain. Then I saw them, and I didn't walk any further. One of them, she looked at me and I felt so betrayed. Angered mainly at my own stupidity for believing that things were like they were before. They could never go back, so I turned and ran. I didn't care that the boys kicked mud up my tights, to make pretty, embarrassing patterns, I wanted to get as far away from the promise I had made as I could. I didn't know what to do and thought if I ran away from it it wouldn't matter - for now. I had sold that last little piece of dignity for some un-done science homework.

Got caught up in that tangled web all over again.

Fucking stupid, non?

Feeling:
Listening to:
Pretending:

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