Monday, May. 16, 2005 : "i think i love you"
What right do you have to judge? But what right do I have to judge, I am always scared of that, because people are stupid and selfish but I am the worst and I am desparate. And I also an awful person, but I hate you for pointing it out. And it only makes it worse. How do I get right out of this? I didn't mean anything, and being good seems such a simple thing, but so very difficult. And I want to be good, I want to be worth you, or something this beautiful. I'm not making sense, I wish I was worth it; I wish that you couldn't make me feel so guilty and judgemental, because you judge me like I judge you. It makes me sad, but I'm the worst example. Not making sense.
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